Conversation with Self.

So, what do you want?

Freedom

What from?

The insignificant burdens of futile daily existence.

How will you find it?

Escape.

To?

A place where the mind reigns and sprints without restraint.

Why?

Because it is weighing down heavy on my able mind.

Will you find a better place?

Maybe. Maybe not.

Willing to take the chance?

Chance, willing to give my damn life.

Its that important?

Evidently.

More than the people you love? Or rather who love you?

Love is transient. It is an illusion. True love transcends all barriers.

So your heart is either cold or too strong?

I’d prefer in the right place.

And you are sure this is the right decision?

As sure as I’ll ever be, more sure than I’ve ever been.

Finding what you’re looking for doesn’t come with a warrantee or map or expiry date.

I realize that. But I have to try. There are things waiting for me. Better things. Things that go beyond material existence.

Like what?

Like the real salvation I’m looking for. The true freedom of my spirit.

How do you know it’ll make you happy? Finding what it is that you’re looking for?

It’s a chance I’m willing to take. It’s a risk that’s worth it. It’s a way of knowing. It may not be fruitful, but will be educational nonetheless.

For the sake of experience you’re willing to give up everything you’ve worked for?

I dint work for it willingly. I was made to like those things, believe those things, want those things. But now, when I think, I know I don’t want any of it. I don’t need any of it. It doesn’t bother me anymore.

So, your faith is still here?

My faith died the day I tried to renew it.  RIP dear, 28.10.08.

 

 

RIP Sabina Sehgal Saikia

The Delhi Times won't be the same without your article. A lull may pass into creation as I will stare at the space where you used to feature, a wet spot may form itself as a tear will fall unmistakably at the loss we will feel at your demise.

I blame myself for setting too much store by your suggestions and opinions. A gem is lost, a great writer lost. 

You died a sudden and unwarranted death. I pray your husband and children find the strength to live through this.

But this cause of terrorism shall be fought, we will fight because we can and we must.

Let your death not remain futile, but serve as a reminder that terrorism lurks in every ugly corner and claims innocent lives. Let it be the root of our cause, of our struggle which will last long and shall be hard, against the tainted political system in our country.

You will not be forgotten, Sabina, your untimely quietus will linger in the courtyards of our hearts for long. 

-RIP-

Letter to Dr. Manmohan Singh

Dear Sir,

SUBJECT: T FOR TERRORISM, E FOR ENOUGH.

We have been extremely grieved by this tragic incident, but grief is not all we need to express. We are an agitated youth, and we demand that serious action be taken against the gross anti-national elements that are plaguing our country. We are absolutely appalled by the current state of affairs and we expect you as our leader to lead the change and dispel future prospects of such an aggravated situation from occurring again. There seems to be little value placed on the civilian's life. An attack as such on the Parliament invited the best of enforcements immediately. But such a calamity is a result of your callousness, sir. 

What good was your Oxford education if you can't use it to solve the country's gravest problems?

How did you get sleep at night, sir, after any of the blasts? You were content with the way security was 'tightened'?

How do you tolerate this? Can you even imagine the plight of these families who have lost loved ones? The ones who lost brave souls who gave up their lives for this?

We understand that you cannot possibly pick up an AK-47 and stand in front of these spots as a security personnel but you CAN form better laws, reform the law enforcement agencies, make the political process more transparent and buck up the intelligence agencies.

Our faith in the entire political process seems to be ebbing away.

With all due respect, we need you to transform the system and arrange for a stricter law enforcement system. You have us to answer to and you need to justify this. How terrorists armed with extensive ammunition marched into our sea-ports and attacked living symbols of our heritage, the Taj, important landmarks and will walk away unharmed and untouched.

Harsh as this may sound, it's time someone asked these questions. We have tolerated ENOUGH, now NO MORE. You have US to answer to. So you better have some answers for our questions, because someone needs to answer them, and who else other than the PM?

Yours truly,

The Youth of India.